Several Weeks Later.....Still No Smoking!

Well, it's been several weeks now...the urge hits, A LOT! That's OK though!

I can handle it...sometimes. Other times, I have to find something, anything to get my mind off of it!

The roller-coaster...continues! At least I'm still on the ride, I haven't fallen off!

In other news...took my son camping this past week. Let me re-phrase that, my husband to our son camping this past week. I join them for a couple of days. N.I.C.E...

I think I enjoyed it WAY more than they did! Just getting away from things for a few days was a blessing!

My mom is still in the Retirement/Nursing Home. She still calls it the prison. She's starting to adjust to it, she just doesn't want me to know it.

My uncle, refuses to move from the home the City has condemned...that's another battle. One, I'm afraid, no one can win! The end result will be, that the court will appoint an "independent" liaison officer to over see his living arrangements, finances, etc. Since he never married and had a family, I think that this is in his best interest. He has developed quite a gambling problem which coincides with his drinking problem, something I can't handle, for sure!

I have "no patience" for someone who cannot grasp hold of their problems and deal with them. My short coming, I know and I recognize this for what it is and accept it. I try to make them understand that I just do not possess the capability to emphasize. They still do not comprehend! Go figure...

But, now I'm trying to look toward the future more optimistically. One day at a time....

Week One...No Smoking!

Well, it's been a roller coaster of a week, let me tell you!

But, it's worth it. No smoking. After day 3, things just seemed to "chill out"!

I had really thought that I wouldn't make it. Seriously!

Now, it's been a week and I FEEL great! I can actually "taste" things. Not like before I quit smoking. Before I quit, things really kinda tasted the same, ya know?

Now, it's like, when I eat, I taste all the different spices used in the meal. The difference is un-real!

Not to mention that since I quit, I don't get up every morning coughing! I have more energy than I have had in a long, long time. And my skin doesn't look as bad as before.

And, to date, I have saved $42 bucks! Of course, my baby tells me not to think about the money, just what a difference it's made in my health, already.

Along with no smoking, I have replaced my main meals, with Lean Cuisine! Instead of chips, I bought apples, oranges, grapes and salad mixers. I've replaced sodas with Sugar Free flavored water and tea. (I still drink 1 soda a day, at lunch). I've replaced the sugar with Splenda and I use more pepper on regular foods, keeps me from eating all of it that way!

One week ago I could barely walk around the yard without loosing my breath, now, I can. I am sleeping better at night, and I don't feel so depressed. Depressed, yes, I no longer feel depressed! Amazing the side effects smoking has on someone!

Now, on to Week two!

The New Me....

I quit smoking. Cold turkey. A pack a day.

State tax increases moved prices upward toward $6.00 per pack.

$6.00 per day to smoke. Who needs this crap!

So, now I put $6.00 each morning in a cookie jar on my countertop.

Within the next year, I'll be able to:

remodel my kitchen
take my children to DW for va-cay
buy new clothes

possibilities are endless....looking forward to the new me!

(instead of stuffing my face with food, whenever I feel the urge to smoke or eat, I clean something. Nothing to clean, then I make a mess and clean it!)

Time to take my life back, and get down to enjoying some things before it's gone!

Maybe dealing with my aging mother these past few months, I have finally accepted
that I am not getting younger, just older.

My mother is now in a full time care facility, some call it a nursing home, she refers to it as the prison ward.

Her roommate is her cell mate, the other patients, inmates.

Her health has declined, she requires dialysis 3 times a week, suffers congestive heart failure, what else could I do? Her live-in daughter wasn't taking care of her, feeding her, cleaning the home, etc. I love her too much to let her life end that way.

I did what needed to be done, for her. Maybe one day she will see that, I hope.

In keeping with Holy Crapper's Tantelizing Tuesday's...Here's Whip It Up Wednesday...

I'd like to introduce to you, one hot little number.

One I'd do in a nan-o-second...


Mark Harmon!